So I had no idea about the blog world until my neighbor emailed me about some. Has anyone read thepioneerwoman one or captainhambone? They are funny.
It is almost 3:30am and amazingly I can't fall asleep. First I just had a great meeting with a restaurant about our chocolates and it went well. We are trying to get my chocolates in their dessert mix, and then some big events coming up in the fall that they will want our chocolates at, also, they have a little shop to sell their wines and olive oils in and I could put some of our chocolate in their case (the prepacks). This would be great! So we will see. The manager was also very excited about me running for City Council. It made me feel good. I was feeling like I could conquer the world.
The other news is that I'm trying to get this modest clothing shop off the ground, with a shoe-string budget and I thought Kev would be all for it. He was an advocate, and then, as soon as I came back from FL, the option just blossomed before me that I had to go for it. We have an awesome site in our current center to put our clothing shop and I just got the okay today that I can lease it. Now Kev is saying that he wants to wait. This is KILLIN me. Of course, him as well. He said he feels so bad, like he's crushing my dream, and well, it is. I feel like, is there anyway I can convince him otherwise? He wants to wait at least a couple more months and then figure it out, or even wait until next year. (our goal was to pay down/off debts this year and starting a new biz doesn't go in that direction). Next year? Our perfect little spot won't be there by then. Unless the Lord knows otherwise... which He does, so why do I whine?
I get it, I get it. I'm changing things up. Not going according to our plans. I get that we should wait, but I'm so passionate. I feel like a starving artist. I feel like I'm going to jump out of my skin from excitement! I have so many people that can't wait for this shop to get open! And then, I have my Love... my everything. And I do not want to make him stressed out and my passion for this is. And that hurts. And I would never do this without his blessing. I need him to be excited about this as well. That's the part that hurts, is that he isn't with me. I thought he would be excited and just think like me about taking it slow and put the shop together slowly. But obviously, someone has to have their feet on the ground, and I know it's a good thing that he does, I just don't like it at this moment.
EDIT: So I decided that we won't open it until next year. I let the landlord know that we WON"T be taking the lease and I'm sad, but I know that Kev never leads us in a wrong direction and so... I just have to have patience. Which is good, it will give me more time to plan and get things organized and not try and get it open in two months. but still... sigh....
2 comments:
I love that you're a passionate person, as I'm sure Kevin does as well. It's hard sometimes to be patient, but I guess that's the whole point.
It's hot, muggy, and buggy here in Georgia, but things are coming together. Jesse's been working really hard to try to make the rest of the summer as painless as possible for everyone.
Good luck with everything!
You are so enthusiastic and full of energy and ambition! It's hard to remember that things don't always work out on the time table that we want. It's good that you are able to work things out together and be rational. Life is always easier when you and your spouse are on the same page!
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